damn moodless now. thinking about closing this blog. i should. its because im not who i am anymore. i can't say bhb sentence and laugh about it anymore. i tend to to be more reluctant throwing jokes. i've become so aware of my impression on others.

i guess its back to the my first non-corrupted and innocent self. . trying my best to be the gentlemen. and i shall no longer blog about what i do. or what i did. because humbleness is not meant to be told. and nobody credits themselves. self praise has never been a praise.

i'm emo. because its been some time since someone made me thought about myself so much. and i did. and i've made up my mind.

maybe i'll blog. but perhaps anoynamously. somewhere else. definately not advertising it.