anyway. the recent saga at of xia xue getting sued because she ranted so much about how she hates being compared and started spamming every fact/rumour she heard about the person to make her point.

i feel the same too. being compared. whats more when you're being compared to something you know you are so much better then or so much (laughs to myself) . BUT.. I for one. know that when i bhb i am only joking. knowing fully that i am just blabbering nonsense.

there really is a difference between bhb and just being plain proud and arrogant. when i bhb to "BOOST MY SELF CONFIDENCE" (not what i intended).. all i wanted was the reaction that people give me. the look on their face. them wanting to strangle me any moment. priceless. but sometimes people see it differently, and conclude that maybe i do not have enough self-confidence and need to do stuff like these. I DO NOT. its my PERSONALITY. its what i like to do. on the contrary, being proud and arrogant. is like saying that i am better than others. or i am inferior. I DONT DO THAT

if one goes "i'm so handsome"
or. "i'm just a great dancer"
thats bhb(buay hiao bai, 不要脸, dun want face)


which is from
"i'm so much more handsome then you guys"
and "i'm the best dancer there is"

I DON"T have to boost my self confidence. i know where i am at. And if i'm not cut out. i won't ghey kiang. i'll WORK for it. i WORK to accomplish it. i WORK for respect. i WORK for gratitude. if i don't get them. it doesn't mean i have to go around telling people my achievements. i resent that. i want to be noticed through talent and hard work. not just plain stories. i believe in seeing is believing. and that if one really works hard he will receive what is deserved.


Karma, i definitely believe in karma, but however, you do not do good deeds at the hope that something good is bound to happen back to you. its just that how you treat people. one of the most important things i've learnt in my 15 wonderful years of life is to put myself in other's shoes before i do anything.. think before you do anything stupid.. it may be fun and hilarious for the first 10 minutes but it'll just end up messing your life. which happened to me. but i pray for the best and it will never happen again. in layman's term it goes "if you do not want someone to kope your food, don't kope theirs" even though this does not sound like a very good example. i feel that it could be. some people are very particular about their own food, perhaps they get pissed or not happy about it when someone "invades" their territory of their bowls and plates. however they always love to 'taste' other ppl's food. i mean its alright if you don't mind other people taking your food. but others might mind. learn to ASK. and BE understanding. everyone have different expectations in life. and some are just more particular about things.


this entry isn't to rant on anybody in particular just wanted have a say in my stand