just got back from Malaysia awhile ago. man the driver is one hell of a racer ! damn dope and got lots of balls lol!

anyway. not posting details first. just gonna write down some life-long lessons that i've learnt over there! before i forget them

ok lesson one - one layer of sunscreen is not enough! EVEN IF ITS BANANA BOAT (cuz it might not be even, sometimes must kia su a bit more)

lesson two - don't peep into people's phone and read their messages. you'll get disappointed, dishearten, and emo. and ruin the party mood. and then be very sorry after that.


lesson three - One of the most important things to know. is your own identity. thinking this through deeper, even though it may be a very arrogant phrase. its really important to find out who you are, stick with it, and be confident of it. You can know a celebrity inside out and know nothing about yourself and whats the point of that. i learnt the phrase from uncle johnson who doesnt like to be called uncle ( his like 39 i think, and claims that his body is 21, soul is 21 and sometimes act like a kid between the age 4 to 12 ) i believe i heard he was a counsellor...

lesson three - this is a personal lesson that i am unable to impart to myself in the future if i ever loose my memory unless i am able to talk to myself. but yes ' wa eh hokkien tongkim ka tok gong' (my hokkien language is now more supperb)

lesson four - give your father more attention when his teahing you how to tie the fishing line. or you'll end up like me screwed without a rod when people go fishing !

don't get me all worried );

anyway. the recent saga at of xia xue getting sued because she ranted so much about how she hates being compared and started spamming every fact/rumour she heard about the person to make her point.

i feel the same too. being compared. whats more when you're being compared to something you know you are so much better then or so much (laughs to myself) . BUT.. I for one. know that when i bhb i am only joking. knowing fully that i am just blabbering nonsense.

there really is a difference between bhb and just being plain proud and arrogant. when i bhb to "BOOST MY SELF CONFIDENCE" (not what i intended).. all i wanted was the reaction that people give me. the look on their face. them wanting to strangle me any moment. priceless. but sometimes people see it differently, and conclude that maybe i do not have enough self-confidence and need to do stuff like these. I DO NOT. its my PERSONALITY. its what i like to do. on the contrary, being proud and arrogant. is like saying that i am better than others. or i am inferior. I DONT DO THAT

if one goes "i'm so handsome"
or. "i'm just a great dancer"
thats bhb(buay hiao bai, 不要脸, dun want face)


which is from
"i'm so much more handsome then you guys"
and "i'm the best dancer there is"

I DON"T have to boost my self confidence. i know where i am at. And if i'm not cut out. i won't ghey kiang. i'll WORK for it. i WORK to accomplish it. i WORK for respect. i WORK for gratitude. if i don't get them. it doesn't mean i have to go around telling people my achievements. i resent that. i want to be noticed through talent and hard work. not just plain stories. i believe in seeing is believing. and that if one really works hard he will receive what is deserved.


Karma, i definitely believe in karma, but however, you do not do good deeds at the hope that something good is bound to happen back to you. its just that how you treat people. one of the most important things i've learnt in my 15 wonderful years of life is to put myself in other's shoes before i do anything.. think before you do anything stupid.. it may be fun and hilarious for the first 10 minutes but it'll just end up messing your life. which happened to me. but i pray for the best and it will never happen again. in layman's term it goes "if you do not want someone to kope your food, don't kope theirs" even though this does not sound like a very good example. i feel that it could be. some people are very particular about their own food, perhaps they get pissed or not happy about it when someone "invades" their territory of their bowls and plates. however they always love to 'taste' other ppl's food. i mean its alright if you don't mind other people taking your food. but others might mind. learn to ASK. and BE understanding. everyone have different expectations in life. and some are just more particular about things.


this entry isn't to rant on anybody in particular just wanted have a say in my stand

i CAN GO MERCING OMFG YES! omg omg :o hahas. all the sea sports. i shall come back BLACK and macho.. ok maybe not macho . butknow to swim even better! and best of all to spend time with karmaine !! (; i know we'll be so much closer and know each other that much better after this trip! ahh ahh..

danced for the whole frcking morning today! i really liked esther's choreograph and i hope she does not see this. cuz i think esther is freaking talented. her feeling. her technique her flexibility are all there and shes only 15! DAMN..

anyway. after that i went down to city hall to collect my audition results! not v disapointing even though i only got into one genre. its better then nothing and besides if i had gotten into locking( yes i got into popping ) i would have to sacrifice all my fridays from the 2nd week of september onwards =( no way! i'd rather risk my sunday evenings hahas.

then after that i went to somerset mrt where my phone died. which was when i waited a pathetically 2 hours OMFGZ. good thing i brought my charger and was able to find a plug SOMEWHERE ( i won't say where but its in the station. mwahahaha ).. oh and i also had my psp. but still 2 hours is.. tiring damnit -.- neck pain ah.

no wait. before that i went to heren to look for my round hat. which turned out to be.. a little oval.. but wthheck. its 39.90 ! i might as well buy the real one which is like 10 to 20 bucks more but that much better.. i think.. not very experienced in round hats. ;o

karmaine FINALLY came. tat kamikazi. take so long =( but we just walked around orchard. i forgot the places i think ( refer to another blog ) but the only thing i rmb was the wanton mee i ate! the wantons ah.. GOD ah. fried ones instead of poking my gum. they break when they touch my gums! OmFG damn soft and crispy. i like this combination! OMGG . g0d g0d g0d wanton Mee!

ohoh karmaine asks if i want to join her to go to malaysia for 3 days. i WOuld LOVE TO. but -.- damnit. i better ask tml. its in 5 days ! super short notice and. well i really think that the odds for me being able to go are. like really really low =( .. but well must be optimistic! i can go i can go! can i go? pretty pleaseeeeeee i'll be a really good(and black) boy when i come home. (;

i know i v nice

yesterday went to play soccah for the first time in a very long time. i forgot how much fun it was! infact it was great! terrific! wonderful! exicting. cept that halfway while playing i heard some thumping sound. i thought it was the constructions. but when i asked around no one else heard it but me.. so i checked again. it only seemed to come from my left ear! so i was like WTF OMFG ... it was fast! i didn't know what it was until i felt my own heart beat which matches significantly with the thumping at my ear.. it was scary. i thought i would turn green/purple or smth and grow freakishly huge muscles and only be able to speak simple english or. in this case. simple singlish..

anyway i was teamed with yu kean. who was a natural at soccer. his g00d. haha, and like A2, some guy named quek and the other guy whom i don't know his name ( SO SORRY ;X ) anyway we won like 3 or 4 games in total. great fun ;O and i mananged to score 2.. ok ONE goal since the other one touched loky's legs before it rolled in. ah well..

and from yesterday till now. my right thigh is still cramping and the angle hurts like hell... damnit~ and there dance tml omfgg. and performacne on monday! and BYD on wednesday! and the frcking holidays the week after! OMFGGG lolz.

anyway that night after i went home. i wanted to watch the olympics which i have not been very hyper about. cuz basketball was on! (USA(won) vs aus) but in the end i just went out to meet karmaine (; (;

she had to like get present for someone. then like in the end she just decided to get it another day. oh ps i think today's her birthday. oh it is! OOPS... HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAOMI.. so we just walked around. and around even more.. and me being frame as petty. and today called a kaypoh( WHICH i can't deny though) what can you expect from me. i'm a curious in nature mahh. so yeah we did some stuff and let discussed some of our dreams. or mostly my dreams haha. which i amazingly finally have had after i started reading that book. hahas. but i really don't thinlk catching a fish and then it disappears into dust MIGHT mean that when brought into context may mean that i may have thought i accomplished something but i actually have not in reality. Maybe it was more of a. it was a fucking random dream :O

anyway i brought a microphone adapter. which means i can finally use the mic on my computer speaker( which i have now brought into my room) yes i pimped my room a little! just a.. vision of what it might or could be in the future. haha just.. it would be less messy. less blueish. less doors. less stuffs on the floor. less nonsense being throwned around. less long forgottened worksheets left on the floor. and finally more walking/dancing space!

yeah anyway because of this! i wasn't able to sleep till 3am yesterday(or today..) and i won't know what time i'll be sleeping today! tsk tsk tsk XD

whens the next level? ;o

performance today was great!! haha. my parents finally see me performance/dance properly for the first time. (OH no wait. they saw me during christmas!) ohya.. i keep thinking it was their first time. ahwell hahas didn't let myself down. though i knew how messy i was with popping today. but locking definately had improved.. everyone else did good too! haha oh and i accidentally smacked pearlyn's hand oops! sorry!


also it seemed to have become a trend for school's dance ccas to only have 1 guy! haha. tpjc and some other comtempary school also only had one guy.

anyway. when i was out there... the bass was strong as hell and it vibed me! after the rehearsals i was already tired shit. legs falling apart. but out there. it was! BOOM. then something made the audience cheer and scream ! vibing me even more! it felt good! this adds that much more to dancing ! and i love it even more!

took some pictures on other ppl's phone. and like if can get my hands on em i'll upload them soon, together with a picture of me in my new earring! hehs . can't take now cuz im like half naked in the air con room ;O vrooom z0mg.

another achievement is that i borrowed a book from the library with wei hao! we borrowed the same book. its really deep. hahas. so i can carry the book around and act deep ;D i kinda like it actually. though i find that my reading speed is ridiculously slow -.- dangit

i miss you larhxzsxzs. monday mondayy -.- omfg tml kk's birthday

just some pictures for the performane


just 1 more day till common tests are over. then time to parteh! (not too much, but yeah parteh!)

dear karmaine...

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STOP ... making me look like a frcking TIKOPEK on your blog. please and ty! :D



in other news. i fixed my frcking phone at last. i am.. such a genius XD



that would be all. ohoh. i could have sworn i wrote every single shit i could think of for ss. and all i managed to write was half a page.. nice.. ps? they gave 2 pages! zomg ;O



and.. that would really be all. peace out

being forced to blog isn't a very good idea, you blog/post/write a diary entry as and when you want to. thats when your creative thinking cells have already bulked up and ready for your disposal. whereas when forced you have to wreck up those tiny little remaining creative cells just to do as you're told.

so anyway. went out with karmaine just now. (she said she wasn't supposed to go out during the weekends... she went out with her parents yesterday, and today, me.) guess i made her break her promise. sh0 sad. but she broke it herself first! ;O

went to the usualy mac at white sands then ehub. i know. our lifestyle is becoming like a routine/a chore. BUT... the contents and the details of them are always new. always different. forever euuniqueck. because with you everything's different, everyday is a new adventure,every minute is memoriable and every second i want it to last.

trying my best not to fall asleep infront of the laptop while im recalling the past 3 months... it was great, has been great, and as i see it. will be great...
i didnt bother to take down what you put on my friendster was because i didn't want to, i didn't have to. and because it was all true and i really feel that way..

i love Karmaine Tan Wen Juan
(hurry before i remove this)

happy racial harmony day and a happy national day. its singapore's 43 birthday already! and i found that out today! how great ;O
went to Ritz Carlton today. had a great view of the performance! but that wasn't really part of the whole entertainment there. its the TOILET! its godly ;o YOU COULD SEE THE PERFORMANCE WHILE HAVING A BUBBLE BATH there are MIRRORS! everywhere for zi lian ppl to go to! i'll just let the pictures do the talking .

zilian.

camwh0re.

this is the best part.. a mirror infront of the toilet seat!

nothing beats a little acting cool in a see thru shower!


then there was the parade which i didn't pay much attention to. where i only rmb the amazing display of fireworks (WHICH I HAD A GREAT VIEW OF!!) and hadi mirza and i forgot what her name was. trying to tell us if we see a star? a shinning star? THERES NO FRIGGING STAR IN THE SKY DUMBASSES. ask if we see a hdb or ERP stands along the road next time. asses ! wanted to upload the pictures of the fireworks but blogger seemed to have fucked up and i can't get anything online. dammnit

ahwell. the music for the talent quest thing is complete! and i think its kinda dope! cept for the lame transistions to songs ;O but its still... great! cuz i did it !!.. seriously it kinda takes alot alot alot of hardwork, time and patience! and with this. patience is a great part of trainning yoda promises power with patience. and spiderman's uncle says that with great power comes great responsibilities. having said that. the hidden meaning behind all that meant that with great patience, comes great responsibility.

because. you need to control the amount of patience you give out! too much waiting can kill a person. and too little might not be enough to save a life. so i leave you guys today. with this inspirational phrase. rmb guys. with great patience, comes great responsibility

ps. i brought a new shoe too !

ET... GO HOME ;o

in repestive order. weihao, tianhoe,ivan,shenghao,me,xianghao,yao jie, lok yong (donnervan holding the camera :O)

man do stpuid things and i've just done the dumbest today. but everythings okay now. i hope and it won't happen again ;O

just reached home about 30mins ago from watching MONEY NO ENOUGH 2. the english oso broken TOO.

was soo nice today. karmaine waited for me for 45mins yesterday. but today i waited for her 2 hours + 30mins cuz she 'lost' her ezlink card and had to go back to school hence she was late and we reached 10mins after the movie started. so we decided to wait for the next one. weekdays rocks man. not only do we get student price before 6. if we pay by nets during the weekdays its 6 bucks too! OMFG XD

anyway. speaking of losing ezlink cards. i think i used to be a GOD at it. imagine the following scenario. you lose your whole wallet. you went to make a ezlink card. you paid 21 bucks. took a new photo and wasted 2 hours around white sands running here and there. 2 days later you touch your pocket. AND YOU LOST YOUR WALLET AGAIN. WHAT?!~ so you had to waste another hour and 21 dollars just to get back that id which would be replaced 2 years later by an orange coloured one which forces you to pay more for bus & mrt train services.

DAMNIT lol..
anyway that was last year. the new me is different! because now my wallet caries very imporant stuff so i touch my pocket every 3 minutes ineterval to check if its still there. consisiting of ez link card. IC (only ppl who's birthdays are over are allowed to have these) lets see.. erm tapz card. newbie membership card. POSB CARD . ohoh condo-side-door-card . condom shit load of movie ticket stubs. a neoprint that is stuck to the transparent screen. and some cash. DAMN. i can't afford to lose something like this!

oh anyway the movie was long. but meaningful. from now on im gonna be twice as filial as i already am. and be twice as hardworking(even though its not alot. its an improvement).


believe and you shall achieve. ~ liu jing

sitting in the living room and im blogging about the above question. But unfortunately the television is really distracting, having 'So you think you can dance? 3' and also Friends (S10) running! -.-

And ALSO instead of revising for the upcoming test, which is like next week ;O yeah ok. nvm

i think i should make a list of what i really want at the moment, and i'll work hard to achieve it. i do not want to just make a living and have no aim. thats known as boring.

The first thing that hit my mind was well probably. what i want to be? what i want to do?
i really love dancing, and teaching it is just enjoyable to me.
i want to be able to teach dancing!
but on the other hand, i still need a back up.. but this is the part where i'm not really sure what i want here. business sounds great and all, but is that what i really wanted? experienced work last holidays, and i guess its just.. alright. to work under someone. maybe i'll start a business or something. but all i have is just a vague idea of what it would be like.. damn

then there's also, i want a home.
not just any home, it has to have DOPE written all over it! not literally. but yeah. people will come in and go like WOAH , DOPE MAN!! ;o


i want money and knowledge and also health
yeah greedy eh? wealth and health, don't usually come together in one package easily. but i'm gonna make that happen, i mean whats the use of being rich when you arent able to spend all that money? and whats being healthy when you have no monay to spend? and of cause being smart is important (;

a wardrobe filled with dope stuff (;
yeah i wanna clear my wardrobe lol . so many things that i want! -.- that HAT. that COAT . THOSE HUSH PUPPY SHOES. OMFG -.-ohoh and another DAMNED pair of jeans ;o no not just one but a shitload of jeans. new tees. shirts and omfg i can't stop


but it still bugs me that wanting a family didn't came up when i saw this question. i always thought i would love to have well a wife and kids to take care of. I guess its due to the recent events that had happened which changed my perspective of things.

but i guess a family is still a want. but just not the top 3 priority...


then i think i should make a list of the things i should/could do in the near future.
first of all i guess is to

- grow up? not just phsyically but mentally as well. though i know i will become this boring person. shucks ;x

-Work on my dancing.
yes! if i don't i don't think my first want would be achieved (;

-Study ( FOR REAL? i don't even do my homework) which is why i guess i should start.

-WORK? yeah for that wardrobe i'm wanting (;



yeah so i guess thats what i want . and what i want to do about them. oh and also theres the Recital comming up! i had great fun last year! and im not gonna miss this one either! HERE I COME :D :D

oh and also i want to learn Latin. it just keeps looking hotter and hotter ;x

ohkay damn it. have been starving myself and eating unhealthy stuff for my meals this week. and it sucks. how am i ever gonna get fat!?!~~


just yesterday i had cup noodles + 4 sushies for lunch and maggie noodles ( plus an egg, some bean sprout, sliced fish, cabbage and some other random stuff i could find in my fridge )
AND the previous 2 days i ate cup noodles too. although on wednesday was because i wasn't full. ahwell shucks.

imma go weigh myself right now..
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wtf? 60kg?! -.- *checks if the weighing machine is spoilt*
damn -.- i actually gained 0.5 kg. imba shit -.-


this week been an okay week. not very happening, but not very boring i guess cept for the fact that i'm rotting at home when i could have been enjoying the skatting rink.. ahwell . if its a chore then dun do it :O